Sowwy

It seems I am back to my old self and not updating my blog again. I apologise. As a way of explanation, I am going to do something I haven’t done yet. I am going to explain to you exactly what I have been doing with my time.

The months of June and July have been hectic and filled with so much that it simply flew by. I found myself going to sleep and waking up and one day I woke up and it was the end of one month and now I face the end of another. What has happened in these months? They have been exciting in so many ways and mundane in itself. In 2 months I have seen so much change that my daily routine has changed.

I had reinvigorated my graduate job search. I actually a couple of roles I am excited about. Then I was deflated again and it has come full circle now to be reinvigorated. I am still frustrated, unsure of myself and my capabilities, but still totally trusting in God.

As I have mentioned before my day to day job was a sales role that was pleasurable enough when I started and soon became a chore. Notice the was. The campaign ended at the end of June, so I have found myself looking for a new job and in the interesting position of not having to wake up for work everyday. Its great on the days that I want to chill, but as I have been discovering lately having that place to go to on a daily basis was a useful distraction from life and everything that comes along with it.

I have also decided that I want to go on a missionary trip to Israel. Actually I decided I wanted to go on a mission trip to somewhere like India or maybe even Kenya and check out a Safari while I am there, but it seems God had other plans and is leading me to Israel and hey who am I to disobey? I am excited about what that holds for me. I am excited about what God wants to do through me, and I am looking forward to meeting the person that will return from Israel. So many people say it changes your outlook drastically. At this point in time, I just want to escape to a world where I can just be focused on God for a period of time and forget about all my drama.

Lastly, there has been a lot of wedding planning going on. No not mine. Not a hint of a man, remember? My littlest big sister (the oldest of the girls) just got married a few days ago. Despite her nearly 2 year engagement she only gave us 3 months to plan the wedding. Yes 3 months! So there are things that should have been sorted about 6 months ago that weren't sorted 3 days before the wedding. A couple of weeks to the wedding I tried to convince myself that I wasn't worried that the groom still hadn't decided on a suit? Why would I be worried that my sister didn't have a make-up artist or that the bridesmaid dresses hadn't been completed or that the hotels hadn’t being booked when the wedding was only round the corner? In case you haven’t guessed I lost an abominable amount of weight and got very little sleep, but isn't what we happily do for people we love.

I have suddenly become aware that because I tend to write about the issues that are on my mind, I don’t tell you much about my daily life. Get ready to be bombard by all the mundaneness (no it’s not a word, yes I’m using it) of this girl’s days. I will make the effort to post in more detail about what has been happening with me in the last couple of months.

For now it’s simply nice to be back. I really did miss this.

I hope you have forgiven me, knowing I did not neglect you out of rudeness