Not A Hint of a Sniff of a Man
"Yes I am 22 now."
"Yes I have finished my degree."
"Well I’m looking for a job right now."
"No aunty I don’t have a boyfriend."
"No aunty no one has approached me."
"NO THERE ISN'T EVEN A HINT OF A MAN SNIFFING AROUND ME."
(The last one was said in my head….never, never, never out loud)
It seems I am back to my old self and not updating my blog again. I apologise. As a way of explanation, I am going to do something I haven’t done yet. I am going to explain to you exactly what I have been doing with my time.
Marriage Founded Life: Good or Bad?
After graduating in summer 2012, I took a gap year. I simply needed a year out to figure myself out and tick some stuff off the to-do list. I am an avid believer in self-improvement so I made a list from learning to ride a bike, to baking, to doing a study of every chapter in the bible before I have to face the distractions of the grad job. I even threw in the good old write a quality novel while I was at it (and I’m still on chapter 1 after how many months). Basically, over the few months of my life, I am meant to become a superwoman and acquire every skill I need in life.
Wanting to Run. Choosing to Stay.
I have always known that I don't want to work for someone for the rest of my life. I am either going to start my own business or invest in property or do both, but I am not going to be a lifelong employee. I am going to create jobs for the masses. This has been decided for as long as I can remember. I have old notebooks filled with business ideas and some pretty good ones even though they are in the undeveloped handwriting of a 10 year old.
My Own Path
I have mentioned (more accurately ranted about) my disenchantment with the process of getting the dream job I have spent years working towards. Since I graduated, I have been attempting to complete this process successfully, but to be honest I have only done a handful of applications.
The Dream Job
When it comes to my education, I have ultimately always done what I was supposed to do. In year 9, they said that this was the most important year. They said I had to pass my Sat Exams or I would get put in a low GCSE grouping, then I would fail my GCSEs, then I wouldn't get into university and then I would never have a good job. So I worked harder than any 13 year old should.
Not Too Late for a Happy New Year
I spent the last few hours of 2012 fighting the tears from flowing to the surface. My mood was probably triggered by frustrating events that seeped into my evening and made an already tiring day just that more wearisome. However, I found myself looking back on my year and having the oddest reaction. 2012 had been a difficult year, but also an amazing one. 2012 gave me wonderful memories, one of the best being finally graduating from university against all odds. I am truly thankful to be able to see another year through, to have finished with one stage of my life and to be facing my future. I am thankful for the person I became last year and the things I learnt. The people I met and the opportunities I had.